• Put a flower or more in my inbox to show your muse's feelings for mine, anon or not:
  • AMARANTH: Broken-hearted
  • ANEMONE: Possessiveness
  • BEGONIA: Warning
  • BELLFLOWER: Gratitude
  • CANDYTUFT: Indifference
  • CARNATION (PINK): Protectiveness
  • CARNATION (YELLOW): Disdain
  • DILL: Lust
  • GERANIUM: Respect
  • IRIS: Inspiration
  • LARKSPUR: Familial affection
  • LAVENDER: Distrust
  • LILY (ORANGE): Hatred
  • LILY (RED): Professional relationship
  • LILY (WHITE): Regret
  • MARIGOLD: Jealousy
  • PANSY: Loving thoughts
  • PEONY: Shyness
  • PETUNIA: Anger and resentment
  • ROSE (ORANGE): Fascination
  • ROSE (RED): Romantic love
  • ROSE (PINK): Friendship
  • SUNFLOWER: Admiration
  • SYCAMORE: Curiosity
  • TUBEROSE: Pleasure
  • TULIP (WHITE): Forgiveness
  • TULIP (YELLOW): Insecurity
  • VIOLET: Loyalty
  • ZINNIA: Fear

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  • "I don't actually love you."
  • "I just said those things because I didn't want to hurt you."
  • "The only reason I'm here is because I hate you."
  • "They say to keep your friends close and your enemies closer..."
  • "I'm not actually who I say I am."
  • "You don't actually know me."
  • "Listen, about my past... It's not pretty, but you need to know."
  • "Honestly, if I hadn't promised someone I'd be frank with you, I'd probably spout more lies and run away."
  • "I don't think you love me. I think you like the idea of having me around."
  • "Truth hurts, don't it?"
  • "You'll never be enough."
  • "You can't do it."
  • "You're not strong enough to do that."
  • "You're nothing but a immature, little girl/boy hiding away inside an adult body."
  • "We're going to die."
  • "I'm cheating on you."

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seerwhoseesnomore:

Well… it’s been a long time, Karkat. Hello again.

"Hello to you too, Lalonde.  It’s definitely been a while."  You tap your chin consideringly, "The last of you I saw had short hair; long suits you, too."



delivanilla:

Can’t stop drawing Striders D:


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dcassom:

dorks who think they are cool 


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thatsillyjohnkid:

beep-beep-fucking-meow:

He sighs out his latest drag, and proceeds to tell you that the thing eating at him most shouldn’t be eating at him at all, because it really wasn’t a big deal, and you shrug. ”Doesn’t matter.  If it’s eating you, it’s eating you, you know?  No matter how big or small the issue is.”

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After a deep breath, he continues and tells you what the thing was.  You’re honestly surprised— you don’t know what you had been expecting, but that had definitely not been it.  Processing what he’d just said as he covers his eyes, you stare forward with the cigarette dwindling between your fingers.  ”What is it about this that has you upset?”  Thinking it over yourself, he was right.  It had been a year now since the beginning of this mess, since he developed his feelings and you developed yours, since they were confessed and heartfelt kisses were shared for the first time.  ”…You’re right,”  You reluctantly acknowledge, “It caused us problems then, and it’s causing us problems now.  It’s been a year and we’re still in the same situation.”

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>you tell karkat about how you probably shouldn’t be worried at all or anything, or how it shouldn’t be eating at you but is anyways, and he shrugs it off, saying that it doesn’t matter how big or small it is, because it’s eating you. you shrug.

i guess…

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>after you take a deep breath, you proceed to explain to him, and he seems surprised. when you finish explaining, he questions you as to why it has you upset, or what about it does. you rub out the butt of the cigarette, finished with one for now. a short smoke with long drags. if you were gonna be talking, and you had a feeling it was going to be a bit, you might as well stop there. if you wanted one again later, all you had to do was pull out the pack. you can sort of feel the same emotions you’d been feeling recently, well, kind of bubble up, as you think about it. you being to explain a slight shake to your voice. 

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i don’t know? i guess how i’m conflicted about everything — have been, and still am. how it’s causing issues, and has been for a year. how i’m just… i’m hurting you and i’m hurting dave — or how i will end up doing so.

>you laugh sadly.

i’m so weak, god. i hadn’t even told him when i said i would back a few months ago, when he still had all his memory in tact.

>you rub your eyes, trying to keep them dry and prevent yourself from crying. you don’t know how well it’ll work, because the odds of it working were kind of iffy sometimes, but you were just trying so hard not to cry again. you feel like you cry too much, and feel that it bugs other people. then  karkat talks about how you were right in the issues thing, and he reluctantly agrees with you on that. you sigh and look down.

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there’s just so many issues that have been caused or are still happening because of this, and i just. i feel like an idiot, karkat, and i feel like no one should trust me. i’m untrustworthy, especially since this isn’t even the first time this has happened. i don’t understand how you trust me or put up with me, or what you see in me.

His voice shakes as he speaks, in the telltale way it always did when he was fighting tears.  You still have a few drags of your cigarette left, so you take them in short, slow bursts as you listen to him explain himself.  ”You’re allowed to be conflicted,” You answer as you do the same to your butt as he had done to his, “Even if you think it’s taking too long, there’s no time limit on figuring this shit out.  Feelings aren’t always easy to sift through, nor are they particularly pleasant all the time, and you’ve been wedged between a stone and a hard place since this entire thing started.”

"But you don’t need to worry about me.  And Dave— well, we’ll cross that river when we come to it.  It takes a weird sort of strength to hurt someone you love for their own good, but being afraid to hurt them doesn’t make you weak.  And if it does, then I’m weak, too,"  You confess, understanding more than you’d care to explain about John’s feeling of weakness.  John rubs his eyes roughly in a way that makes you want to grab his wrist and stop him, but you refrain.  He was trying not to cry, and you would respect that until, or rather, unless, he broke on his own.  He looks down and sighs, telling you everything.  How he felt like an idiot, how he felt untrustworthy, how he didn’t understand why you put up with him or what you saw in him.  You stare at the ground.

"There aren’t enough hours in the night for me to explain all the reasons I disagree with you.  Of course there are issues— we expected there to be, remember?  And we’ve been dealing with them, because there’s nothing to do but deal with them anymore.  You aren’t an idiot for not having everything figured out.  And shit that happened before I became your friend doesn’t matter to me.  None of it would effect my opinion of you.  Want to hear what matters to me?”

You raise your head to look at him.  ”You.  I trust you because I know you; you’ve never given me a good reason not to, and our situation has nothing to do with how much trust I have in you, anyway.  I put up with you because it’s my pleasure; it’s not tedious or a hassle or whatever you think it is, so I do it because I want to.  As for what I see in you,”  You pause here, to look John over from head to toe, and when you meet gazes with him again, your eyes are full of an honest, melancholy affection, “I see in you everything you think you’re not.”


 




"You’re not the only one refusing to back down."


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thatsillyjohnkid:

beep-beep-fucking-meow:

"It wasn’t exactly a hard association to make," Especially considering you were also a stress smoker, you mentally add, "And of course I do. Two years with you has made me an expert in the field of Egbertology."  You expect that’ll get a laugh out of him, at least. A tiny reprieve from the rest of the shit weighing on his mind. He scratches the back of his head and explains to you some of the things that had been eating him— Dave’s accident, times when his recovery seemed slow or his chances bleak, old memories and the usual nightmares. None of these reasons surprise you, but when he says there’s one other thing eating him moreso at the moment than everything else, you quirk a brow as you slowly breathe out your latest drag. "Yeah? Feel like telling me what that might be?"

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heh, i guess not, huh. 

>he then proceeds to add that of course he does, because he is an expert in the field of egbertology. that earns him a snort from you. it’s a nice thing to do, after a while of not being able to laugh much, and just being kind of stressed. you then proceed to explain to him about what has been eating at you, and he’s not surprised until you say that something else has been eating at you more recently than the others. he quirks a brow and lets out his last drag slowly, before questioning you on it in an almost demanding way. you take a long drag again before letting it out, and sighing.

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the thing that’s eating at me recently probably shouldn’t be, or isn’t really a big deal, honestly…

>you take a deep breath.

it’s been a year since… well. that first kiss between us and since i started falling for you. along with the issues that came with it. i fell in love with you and i still feel those feelings, but it’s caused issues for us both. it’s still causing issues for us both.

>you sigh agan and cover your eyes with your free hand.

and that’s the main thing eating at me with that.

He sighs out his latest drag, and proceeds to tell you that the thing eating at him most shouldn’t be eating at him at all, because it really wasn’t a big deal, and you shrug.  ”Doesn’t matter.  If it’s eating you, it’s eating you, you know?  No matter how big or small the issue is.”

After a deep breath, he continues and tells you what the thing was.  You’re honestly surprised— you don’t know what you had been expecting, but that had definitely not been it.  Processing what he’d just said as he covers his eyes, you stare forward with the cigarette dwindling between your fingers.  ”What is it about this that has you upset?”  Thinking it over yourself, he was right.  It had been a year now since the beginning of this mess, since he developed his feelings and you developed yours, since they were confessed and heartfelt kisses were shared for the first time.  ”…You’re right,”  You reluctantly acknowledge, “It caused us problems then, and it’s causing us problems now.  It’s been a year and we’re still in the same situation.”


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mindfangvevo:

such fashionistas


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#TASH LOOK WHAT I FOUND

thatsillyjohnkid:

beep-beep-fucking-meow:

He’s only tense until he sees you.  Then he’s chuckling as he takes the lighter from you, sounding pretty exhausted.  He lights his cigarette and hands the lighter back, along with his pack, and asks how you knew.  You shrug.  ”Easy—  I forgot the cigarettes.”  Because of course, just like last time, each of you would have the thing that the other needed.  Before, you had been the one without the lighter.  ”So cough one up, and I don’t mean a lung,” You snark idly as you shake a cigarette for yourself out of his pack and hand it back to him.  Sticking the filter between your teeth, you light it up, then put the lighter back in your pocket.  Pausing to take a drag, you ask when you exhale, “What’s eating you?”

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>after you are eased, you question him about how he knew. and he told you it’s because he forgot his cigarettes — just as you thought. you both had reversed the situation. you chuckle. he snarks as he reaches for his lighter and lights his, before throwing the pack back to you. you stuff it into your jacket pocket. you take a long drag as he takes a small one and questions you about what’s eating you. you exhale slowly, before looking down.

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you know that when i’m smoking, something’s eating at me, huh? even if i wasn’t, you have a knack for finding out when something is.

>you scratch the back of your head with your free hand.

i suppose there’s not much eating at me. it’s a few things, but they’re just… taking bit bunks at me, i guess. dave’s accident, and the days we’re trying to improve his condition and it doesn’t go well, have taken their toll on me, as have old memories of multiple things. and nightmares, too, as usual.

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and i guess something else has been eating at me, too, recently. right now a little more so than the others.

>you take another drag.

"It wasn’t exactly a hard association to make," Especially considering you were also a stress smoker, you mentally add, "And of course I do. Two years with you has made me an expert in the field of Egbertology."  You expect that’ll get a laugh out of him, at least. A tiny reprieve from the rest of the shit weighing on his mind. He scratches the back of his head and explains to you some of the things that had been eating him— Dave’s accident, times when his recovery seemed slow or his chances bleak, old memories and the usual nightmares. None of these reasons surprise you, but when he says there’s one other thing eating him moreso at the moment than everything else, you quirk a brow as you slowly breathe out your latest drag. "Yeah? Feel like telling me what that might be?"


  • 1. I'll tell you now you can't win this.
  • 2. You're way too slow.
  • 3. I'll tell you now I'm gonna take this.
  • 4. Did you come here to watch me burn?
  • 5. I'm not always hiding.
  • 6. Come all the way down and watch me burn.
  • 7. I'm not always flying.
  • 8. I'll watch you burn.
  • 9. So let me know just how to take this.
  • 10. You're way to cold.
  • 11. Show me how before it breaks me.
  • 12. Sorry I’m not there.
  • 13. But all my favourite friends.
  • 14. It’s hard to fly when you can’t even run.
  • 15. Once I had the world, but now I’ve got no one.
  • 16. If I needed someone to control me, if I needed someone to hold me down, I would change my direction, and save myself before I drown.
  • 17. If I needed someone to push me around, I would change my direction, and save myself before I drown.
  • 18. Sorry you’re not here.
  • 19. All those times before were never this unclear.
  • 20. It’s hard to walk when you can’t even crawl.
  • 21. Once I had this world, but now I’ve lost it all.
  • 22. You're not the only one refusing to back down.
  • 23. You're not the only one, so get up.
  • 24. You're not the only one.
  • 25. Let's start a riot.
  • 26. Now it seems I’m fading.
  • 27. All my dreams are not worth saving.
  • 28. I’ve done my share of waiting.
  • 29. I’ve still got nowhere else to go.
  • 30. So I wait for you to take me all the way.
  • 31. Seems you’re wanting me to stay, but my dreams would surely waste away.
  • 32. Push me under.
  • 33. Pull me further.
  • 34. Take me all the way.
  • 35. Now it seems you’re leaving.
  • 36. But we’ve only just begun.
  • 37. You’ve still got nowhere else to go.
  • 38. I’ve been waiting so long.

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orznipotent:

decided to draw meenah the same way i draw feferi

results were surprisingly good actually


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yoccu:

yoccu:

sunshine and rainbows

self-reblog bc i miss……homestuck……..


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